I Even Got Stereotyped Out By My Own Personal Trainer At The Local Gym

Dwayne Holloway
True Forced Loneliness
July 27th, 2010

Here’s what I got from my personal trainer in the latest 3 messages from him and what I sent back. Guess what? The truth comes out in the end.

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( HIM ) – Sent: Wed 7/21/10 1:20 PM

Ok bro! Have a great week, get weighed and I’ll c you next week!

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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NOTE: I weighed myself on Friday and went through a fucked up and tough day to do it all and I’m still going to get what you’re all about to see my personal trainer say to me as you read further.

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( HIM ) – Sent: Fri 7/23/10 8:33 PM

Throw those pizza bites down someone else’s throat…or… In the trash can!!! NO NO NO my friend!
Those are just as bad as frozen pizza! Pleeeeezzzzzz don’t eat any more of them! Stick to the plan, and they aren’t on it!
Thanks for getting weighed in, good job!
Sara says you HAD to be over 600, so we’re going with 610. We’ll stick with that number from here on out, ok?! Have a great weekend, hang in there. GOD brought us together, your ma can’t tear us apart!!!

John

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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( HIM ) – Sent: Fri 7/23/10 11:16 PM

Do me a favor. Take the cab to the gym next week and we’ll get you a ride home! There you go! You said you had cab fare, so don’t skip out on me! Do what you gotta do for you, you are the only one who can! And NO MORE PIZZA BITES!!!

John

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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( HIM ) – Sent: Sun 7/25/10 12:34 PM

Hey buddy. I haven’t heard you say anything about taking the cab to the gym. We’ll find you a ride home! You had better be there!

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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NOTE: Since I don’t like being ordered to do things by others. I told him in a reply after he sent me this message, that I’ll be there this coming Monday of the new week. Which is August 2nd 2010. In which my brothers car will be fixed of the problem with his rear back mirror he broke in the car. My personal trainer suggest “Duct Tape” to fix the problem of the car. I’m sorry…but it doesn’t work that way according to driving regulations and policies for the road if my brother we’re to be stopped by law enforcement on the road for a broken Rear View Mirror in his own car. He would be driving blind.

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( ME ) – Sent: Sun 7/25/10 6:42 PM

Hey guy. I appreciate you in helping me finding a ride home from the gym. It’s just that now, I won’t be in tomorrow or this whole week. I’ll be there starting “next week,” though.

- Dwayne

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NOTE: I guess now he didn’t like his own medicine of how he was treated in how he treated me first to begin with at this time forward.

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( HIM ) – Sent: Sun 7/25/10 10:31 PM

That’s a bunch of bullshit! What is wrong with you? I find you a way to the gym, yet you don’t take it? It sounds like you are the one making excuses, not your mom. You are not in a position to be taking ANOTHER week off from the gym. Do you want to live or do you want to die? I would much rather see you @ Best than see you in a casket! I’m not one who takes excuses very well, so you must pardon me for being so pissed off, but again, this is complete bullshit. You are doing exceptionally well, having lost probably 35 or 40 lbs already. Why do you want to take another week off? I didn’t believe you when you said you didn’t know what happened to your brother’s car and now I know you were just using it as an excuse to fall back instead of continuing to move forward. Especially after I said I’d get you a ride home. I figured you would jump at the opportunity to get to the gym, with all the love and free training that we are providing to you. I guess I was wrong. Again, I can’t tell you enough how pissed I am right now. UUUUUUGGGGGGGG WHAT A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT. I CAN’T STAND LIARS AND I HATE EXCUSES JUST AS MUCH!!!!!

John

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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NOTE: He thought the first one didn’t go through to me. But it did and he sent another message

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( HIM ) – Sent: Sun 7/25/10 11:43 PM

I was looking through my sent mail to see if the email I sent u went through. I couldn’t find it. So, in case you didn’t get it, I”ll give you the shorter version of what it was about.

I think it is a complete bullshit excuse that you have for not getting to the gym. You have no reason to not show up here. I realize that many forces play roles in why we do what we do. But these forces can be controlled by what we do with the strength we all posess deep within our minds and hearts. GOD didn’t put you on this earth to get huge and die. HE put you here to lose it and inspire others. I have heard many times from YOU that you are up for the challenge, but with every lie or excuse you give me(which accounts for you missing at least one week every month), I begin to wonder if that is really the case. You would say “I’m gonna show you John.” Well freakin’ show me by getting to the gym. If you don’t start taking this very seriously, you may as well save the cab money and put it toward a casket.

John

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( HIM ) – Sent: Mon 7/26/10 2:04 PM

I want to apologise if I came off like a complete ass in my last email. I just want what’s best for you and get frustrated when I am unable to deliver it. I continue to be in your corner, don’t worry about that. But, once in a while, my clients need a good kick in the ass wake up call. I still stress the fact that you need to be here this week, it’s complete bs if you don’t. Don’t get discouraged by your weight or those around you. Stand up for yourself and take charge of this situation. YOU are the ONLY one who can!!!

John

– DOC’S FITNESS TRAINING

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( ME ) – Sent: Mon 7/26/10 10:20 PM

John, what do you not understand? I just said I would be back next week on Monday and stop the “scare tactics.” You know better than that. I’m a paying customer and you don’t know me like you THINK you or anybody else there knows me. You just did what everyone else did in my whole entire life and that was to “Assume” for me and stereotype me out. I’m not dumb. I don’t take kindly to “orders”. As I seen of that plaster on the wall at the gym. No military style training and “comfortable environment”. And God didn’t ask you to stereotype me out like everyone else did. That’s EUGENICS talk you just said to me John. I’m a human being and not a child. I’m a grown man and a human being. So don’t treat me like one. Bye…

- Dwayne

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Now do people understand what happens when people “assume” for other people and what happens when other people constantly shit and dump on others their whole entire life?

In the end it all comes out. Doesn’t it?

This is why TFL is here to begin with. I’m just tired of being used by people and treated like shit my whole entire life. Even when I’m trying to get my own health and life in order for myself and for what I try to do for others in my efforts? I get stereotyped out my whole life and treated like complete utter garbage as my reward for doing just that.

People always want to assume for me in my life. But nobody doesn’t wanna be assumed for.

They use “Religion” and “Eugenics” to think that an almighty and powerful “God” would put me on this evil and wicked ass world I live in to be stereotyped out my whole life, treated like garbage, stomped on by all genders, races, and sexes in it.

I get so fucking tired of all the bullshit around me and I cannot wait for the fucking U.S. Dollar and Euro Currencies to collapse. I’m sorry ladies and gentleman, but that’s just how I fucking feel being treated like shit like this my whole entire fucking life.

All because people had to fucking look at my size, appearence, color, height and race. I get so fucking tired of it all. And this is the reason I won’t stop doing what I’m doing and come Monday when I go back to that local gym I’m working out at. I’m going to go solo from now on and giving John his “Jose Reyes” New York Mets T-Shirt he bought me, back to him in return. I never asked for it and he bought it for me to wear. So that in case I loose all this weight in the future. He would bring me on a global tour and put me on the “Today’s Show” to help promote the gym I work out at. That I did mention and say to him that I would help to try to expand their company business and to help create jobs in a fucked up economy in which the Criminal Elite are going to crash anyways.

And for this garbage that came at me later with the truth colors coming out from my personal trainer alone. Now I have more reasons why I can’t fucking wait for these dumb asses to get what’s coming to em’ financially, starting with their U.S. and Euro currency.

I’m sorry! but that’s just the way I feel for how I’m being treated by my own personal trainer and by people of our society in our world.

I’ve done everything and worked hard up to this point in my life at that fucking gym and worked my ass off for people. And as you all saw and can see in those gym videos I helped to make and before even making them at that gym. I made those videos for him ( my personal trainer ) and for others to be inspired and motivated.

But see? it’s still never good enough. Just good enough to be used, shitted on, dumped on, by people who supposedly wanna help you.

Sincerely,
- Dwayne Holloway